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Wednesday, March 31, 2010
I had a good day today. just laughing away and it really feels good to just let it all out.
Saturday, March 27, 2010
I'm such a loser. Dont you think so?
Monday, March 22, 2010
I had fun today! hahaha we did nothing but sit and laugh and it didnt even cost me a bomb!
hahahaha my pocket doesnt have a hole yet (:
I actually smiled all the way home because I felt good after SOOO long! just the therapy I needed! THANKS GUYS(:
Atiqah, DOODLES [Mellisa], Keegan and CY (:
Hmmm my train journey home, I was asked a question which kept me pondering the rest of my joruney home. Do i want to join NS? Hmmmm well I definitely would wanna! I mean its like a plus for fitness and its a whole different experience. Its something that only last a few months but it stays with you all the way...Well the memories la. I want to join NS and get in to the air force. FLY HIGHHH! and oh all the cute pilots and the gorgeous look planes;) HEAVEN!
Hmmmm after so many negative posts.. I think today I've finally got something nice to blog (: what a coincidence my sis too!
hahahaha my pocket doesnt have a hole yet (:
I actually smiled all the way home because I felt good after SOOO long! just the therapy I needed! THANKS GUYS(:
Atiqah, DOODLES [Mellisa], Keegan and CY (:
Hmmm my train journey home, I was asked a question which kept me pondering the rest of my joruney home. Do i want to join NS? Hmmmm well I definitely would wanna! I mean its like a plus for fitness and its a whole different experience. Its something that only last a few months but it stays with you all the way...Well the memories la. I want to join NS and get in to the air force. FLY HIGHHH! and oh all the cute pilots and the gorgeous look planes;) HEAVEN!
Hmmmm after so many negative posts.. I think today I've finally got something nice to blog (: what a coincidence my sis too!
Bless this house dear Lord I pray, keep us safe by night and day.
I'm living with tension everyday. I keep thinking something's going to happen!
I need a distraction.
I woke up today and IT popped in my head. Wtf was I thinking. But i'm glad I didnt budge at all.
Tuesday, March 16, 2010
GAH! This week has been SHIT and nothing but SHIT.
A feeling of fulfilment and satisfaction, to feel peace in my whole being was something I've been wanting to feel for SO long and finally I did.
Saturday was Sivarathri, where we're supposed to go pray to Lord Shiva and stay up the whole night, so Ac, my sister and I went. First to the Geylang one then to the Kallang one. Kallang, my all time favourite, just stepping in there was as if the whole atmosphere came gushing right in.
I came home with a big smile on my face as the music from the temple still played in my head, I was finally at peace only to get it all flushed in the toilet an hour or so later.
Just cause you're my father doesn't give you the rights to choose my beliefs and values.
I am an individual. I'm packaged with the ability to choose my values and beliefs according to whatever I feel makes me happy. Yes you are my parent and I'm living under you and t was you who thought me all this but SO? Blind lead blind la? If you think jumping off the building is the right thing, I too should follow you? I'm 20 now and I'm already an adult. Respect is all about give and take. Remember it always takes two hands to clap.
Another drama.
Every time there's a problem, walking out of the house doesn't make solve the problem in anyway, instead its only making it bigger. Just how many years already have you been doing this kind of shit? Has it solved ANYTHING? I'm boiling more and more each time I see you cause I remember all the shit you always say. So much for being a mother. You just don't know how lucky you are till we're finally gone and by then its going to be too late. FCUK!! I'm boiling just thinking of it!
Both of you seem to be taking us all for granted and its time you guys see the light before its too late. We're reaching our saturation point soon!
I thinks it about time only before either of us runs away from home.
A feeling of fulfilment and satisfaction, to feel peace in my whole being was something I've been wanting to feel for SO long and finally I did.
Saturday was Sivarathri, where we're supposed to go pray to Lord Shiva and stay up the whole night, so Ac, my sister and I went. First to the Geylang one then to the Kallang one. Kallang, my all time favourite, just stepping in there was as if the whole atmosphere came gushing right in.
I came home with a big smile on my face as the music from the temple still played in my head, I was finally at peace only to get it all flushed in the toilet an hour or so later.
Just cause you're my father doesn't give you the rights to choose my beliefs and values.
I am an individual. I'm packaged with the ability to choose my values and beliefs according to whatever I feel makes me happy. Yes you are my parent and I'm living under you and t was you who thought me all this but SO? Blind lead blind la? If you think jumping off the building is the right thing, I too should follow you? I'm 20 now and I'm already an adult. Respect is all about give and take. Remember it always takes two hands to clap.
Another drama.
Every time there's a problem, walking out of the house doesn't make solve the problem in anyway, instead its only making it bigger. Just how many years already have you been doing this kind of shit? Has it solved ANYTHING? I'm boiling more and more each time I see you cause I remember all the shit you always say. So much for being a mother. You just don't know how lucky you are till we're finally gone and by then its going to be too late. FCUK!! I'm boiling just thinking of it!
Both of you seem to be taking us all for granted and its time you guys see the light before its too late. We're reaching our saturation point soon!
I thinks it about time only before either of us runs away from home.
Friday, March 12, 2010
An eye for an eye makes the world go blind - Gandhi
You're pushing me slowly and slowly towards the edge and I swear once im there i'm NEVER coming back! There's only so much I can do on my part to tolerate this shit the rest is up to you.
You're like an empty vessel that refuses to fill yourself up with necessary stuff and SHUT UP! It wont hurt to REFLECT once in awhile. You're an insecured thing that just thinks everyone is picking on YOU! HELLO! THE WORLD DOESN'T ONLY REVOLVE AROUND YOU! Every action has an equal reaction. I'm boiling and I think I might explode anything soon. Hurting myself just to vent my anger is only going to affect ME. i'm only 2o and i'm sorry! I think I'm still not even halfway in my journey of life to even consider damaging any part of my mind, body and soul for YOU!
I banged my fist hard on the door and now my nerves feel tight suddenly. Right hand of all the hands!
One thing is for sure. If I were to get blood pressure as I grow, I'm blaming YOU.
"Every women becomes their mother. That is their tragedy." ~The importance of being earnest, 1895.
"The heart of a mother is a deep abyss, at the bottom of which you will always find forgiveness."~Honore de Balzac
Friday, March 05, 2010
Sore
Ding Dong!
I'm dead TIRED! hahaha two consecutive days of speed walking is reminding of muscles in my body I never knew existed. 5.30 in the morning and i'm already waddeling somewhere down the streets with my papa and my sister. goodness my i'm 30 plus years younger than my dad and yet he walks way WAY faster than I can even catch up! what an embarrassment!
Yesterday was day 2 of walking and to top it off. I went to the zoo with Sc in the afternoon! As it is from day 1 i was gifted with 5 blisters on my foot and with that, i waddeled my way arnd the ZOO! imagine the pain! haha but it was fun!
I'm aching all over.. haha gosh i've been so inactive! i'm terribly tired and i need a really good sleep! I need to clear my head of all kinds of stuff and get on with life. UGH! I need a break from life please!
I'm dead TIRED! hahaha two consecutive days of speed walking is reminding of muscles in my body I never knew existed. 5.30 in the morning and i'm already waddeling somewhere down the streets with my papa and my sister. goodness my i'm 30 plus years younger than my dad and yet he walks way WAY faster than I can even catch up! what an embarrassment!
Yesterday was day 2 of walking and to top it off. I went to the zoo with Sc in the afternoon! As it is from day 1 i was gifted with 5 blisters on my foot and with that, i waddeled my way arnd the ZOO! imagine the pain! haha but it was fun!
I'm aching all over.. haha gosh i've been so inactive! i'm terribly tired and i need a really good sleep! I need to clear my head of all kinds of stuff and get on with life. UGH! I need a break from life please!
Tuesday, March 02, 2010
Stagnant
Attempt to study yet again : FAILED
Left home as per usual to catch the 12pm bus to cityhall but got too comfy in the bus, decided to bus down all the way to Vivo. Haha lazy to travel I decided on starbucks which ended up being a flop because
1. AIR CON NOT WORKING= NISHA CAN'T FOCUS! I need to be cool else i get all agitated!
2. atmosphere was just sooo hmmmmm. This starbucks was sort of hidden on the lower floor somewhere, so not many students actually know it exists.
By the harbor where the ships occasionally sound their horns. With my cup of Iced shaken Lemon tea I was drifting off else where.
Something about Vivo that brings a certain nostalgic feeling. There's a certain serenity I find there and somehow its all too peaceful that somehow it makes it impossible to study there! haha Sighs.
Current location: Bras Besah Mac. trained my butt down to cityhall hoping to study! I just landed. With my cup of Lemon Tea and Apple pie.. Let's hope I get something in my head.
I need to do alot of mind clearing. Looks like i might be visiting Vivo again soon! Anybody wants to come? Gosh it was just too hot to sit at the deck today.... sighs!
Bless this soul dear God I pray!
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Left home as per usual to catch the 12pm bus to cityhall but got too comfy in the bus, decided to bus down all the way to Vivo. Haha lazy to travel I decided on starbucks which ended up being a flop because
1. AIR CON NOT WORKING= NISHA CAN'T FOCUS! I need to be cool else i get all agitated!
2. atmosphere was just sooo hmmmmm. This starbucks was sort of hidden on the lower floor somewhere, so not many students actually know it exists.
By the harbor where the ships occasionally sound their horns. With my cup of Iced shaken Lemon tea I was drifting off else where.
Something about Vivo that brings a certain nostalgic feeling. There's a certain serenity I find there and somehow its all too peaceful that somehow it makes it impossible to study there! haha Sighs.
Current location: Bras Besah Mac. trained my butt down to cityhall hoping to study! I just landed. With my cup of Lemon Tea and Apple pie.. Let's hope I get something in my head.
I need to do alot of mind clearing. Looks like i might be visiting Vivo again soon! Anybody wants to come? Gosh it was just too hot to sit at the deck today.... sighs!
Bless this soul dear God I pray!
LOVES!
Monday, March 01, 2010
Who wants to hear me out?
current location: harbour front starbucks sipping on my Mocha Fappucino ice blended. MMMMMMmm Yumm (:
So my attempt to lug my sister's 2kg plus vaio to research for my FYP has been a flop! hahaha
I've been here for 3hrs and I only used less then 20 mins for work and the rest was just left stoning and reading through all stuff and all my older posts.
Plugged in to my Mp3 with songs blasting in my ears I was so into all my browsing, reminiscing and getting all the heart itchy syndrome when suddenly I it was as if my Mp3 was connected to my brain or something but EVERY song was so appropriate to the things i was reading, the mood i was in and whatever emotion I was feeling. AMAZING huh? haha
Gosh the heart itchy syndrome! feel like using a fork and scratching ! (ouch) hahahaha well my battery span is dying to the last 10 mins so i guess i gotta pack up soon an shift my butt up to vivo deck to stone a while then train my butt down to tuition! i'm giving tuition again to the same boy !hahaha the father wants me back cause the son insists on having me only! haaha ((: okay somehow tht sentence phrasing suddenly seems so wrong hahaha!
Anyways! Cheers and peaceout
I'll update again later or tmr! <3
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So my attempt to lug my sister's 2kg plus vaio to research for my FYP has been a flop! hahaha
I've been here for 3hrs and I only used less then 20 mins for work and the rest was just left stoning and reading through all stuff and all my older posts.
Plugged in to my Mp3 with songs blasting in my ears I was so into all my browsing, reminiscing and getting all the heart itchy syndrome when suddenly I it was as if my Mp3 was connected to my brain or something but EVERY song was so appropriate to the things i was reading, the mood i was in and whatever emotion I was feeling. AMAZING huh? haha
Gosh the heart itchy syndrome! feel like using a fork and scratching ! (ouch) hahahaha well my battery span is dying to the last 10 mins so i guess i gotta pack up soon an shift my butt up to vivo deck to stone a while then train my butt down to tuition! i'm giving tuition again to the same boy !hahaha the father wants me back cause the son insists on having me only! haaha ((: okay somehow tht sentence phrasing suddenly seems so wrong hahaha!
Anyways! Cheers and peaceout
I'll update again later or tmr! <3
LOVES!