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Tuesday, September 09, 2008

Whats wrong?

So i've always been listening to everyone and i mean everyone. The good, the bad and the ugly.

I dont know what is it in me, that make people want to talk to. haha i am more than happy to give a listening ear to anyone, even the ah pek in the coffeeshop also can, because i know how it feels when u have so much to let out, and theres that someone beside you or anywhere just listening to you. I love hearing people out and haha might even do it for a living;) [ NO WAY MAN. NOT FOR A LIVING]

But then when its my turn to talk it out what do i get? Blank stares and nods that comes with a self activated button that activates the moment i open my mouth. Its easy to know when someone is listening to you or not cause its just in the face and you sometimes just know it but just go on yapping away for the sake of finishing the convo.

Whats wrong man? No one listens. No one. Some times i just end up talking to myself when i'm alone. So what if you think i'm a weirdo but atleast i feel better that way.

I'm alway there. The one people need to vent things out to. I'm just that punching bag that just aborbs the punches and never gives back. Maybe its time i start giving back too.

I did a little relfection yesterday and thought about why this always happen. And i think its cause i dont voice myself out much. I just shut and smile away for anything and everything. There could be war infront of me and all i do is sit and mind my business while deep down i actually am feeling bugged. I have SO much kept inside. Emotions, like frustrations waiting to just gush out. Except for my exceptional moodswings that only come around "a certain period of the month" I never jump unnecessarily except maybe to simply pick on my sisters just to make me feel better . I alway keep calm so much so that people ask me how i can not be affected by it when they are boiling on their side.

Am i a weirdo? What if i become pyscho? Or get some mental disorder.

I've changed over the years and i'm wondering if its for the good or bad.

Or is it i'm just to ignorant to my surrounding???

and one more thing.

heres a little note to you: Are you an idiot?

Labels: maybe you are an idiot


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