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Thursday, September 25, 2008
Bustards



This is how i'm feeling on the inside currently!





I cant tolerate this anymore. I swear i feel like stabbing you. Stab you till you shut up! Seriously i dont know what but since the first day I've jus thad bad vibes with you and i SWEAR I HATE THE SIGHT OF YOU! I SWEAR I HATE THE SOUND OF YOU! You're by far the first person who has had such an impact on me! I dont think you know but I SWEAR I HATE YOU!

why do you have to be so fake? attention seekers go no where. How long will you be in the lime light? so why go through all thr trouble to look cool for? One day everyone will realise what you're doing is not cool anymore and then you'll be left alone. No one will even want to turn look.

What do you gain? Why BE SO FAKE?

The worst part of this whole shit is that i cant escape it and i'm stuck with it for a VERY long time!

F*CK YOU!

Thursday, September 18, 2008
Sometimes i hate the things i do

So i've skipped a WHOLE week of school. I dont know what came over me. It was just a sudden gush of emotions, something that made me feel so lousy and useless.

i've been trying to refresh and relax this week and so far... i've done cooking with cousin and sister, spent my whole day sleeping, mmm tmr supposed to be polyclinic to get checked on something... then meet Fariza for dinner. Hopefully that will cure me cause i so badly want to go back to school a happy and new person on Monday!

Its the first time in my whole schooling life, have i skipped the whole week of school.
I had a good talk with Erika and i must say she did make alot of sense, and sort of in a way maybe, give me a few answers to my so called problem.

to think she was right infront of me all this while and i was looking arnd for someone to hear me out! Thanks alot Erika i really appreciated it! Thanks alot!

I'm sorry if i let anyone down and i'm sorry if i've been or am being an idiot!

Loves=

Monday, September 15, 2008
Onam

Soooo people.. in my family, Onam is all about .. Eating



Eating

And more eating



Its the time of the year, when no one.. NO ONE knows the meaning of diet. The time of the year where the WHOLE family meets up at grandparent's house for dinner, and all the season's gossips are shared;) hahahaha its the only (one of the few maybe) times when we are ALL together . This one was almost complete cause my cousin from Aussie actually came back BUT another cousin couldnt make it. hahaha The last pic there..... thats about most of the grandDAUGHTERS in the family, and the tiny little Great GRAND daughter down at the corner of the pic. Two others are missing!

Everything was fun... haha kids got the hong paos;) $$$ from grandpa. Everyone had a good time. I'm happy everything went well, cause i'm sure thats how my grandmother would have wanted it. Love you ammuma=)

Thats about the updates for onam...

more pics to be updated when i feel like again;) haha

Loves=)


Friday, September 12, 2008
another note

By the way........

HOW COULD I FORGET..


HAPPY ONAM PEOPLE! !!

Cant wait to go home bathe change and go to grandfather's house.

Good food.....good company... Ooooooooo the family gathering = i LOVE

can't wait! all the cousin's, aunties and uncle's having their little gossips! haha WOO!

by the way....day 3 / 7

good bye person.


w25J

I just read Angie's blog when i suddenly realise something that i've been missing so much that it didnt tell anyone cause i thought they might think i'm a weirdo.


I miss the bloody door.

It was the first thing i realised when i was entering class...it wasnt leang ning on it and pushing it open just like that. It wasn't kicking it with all the strenght just to let it SWING open and hit the wall, and when u step in you see everyone gawking to see if by any chance God decided to make a visit , and then go back to doing their work when they realise its just another one of us. Hahaha
It is still taking me time to realise its not the same door anymore. many a times trying so hard but yet it doesnt.. infact .. irony of it was ha aha after meeting angie and sophie just now, before even reading their blogs, (since i am sitted near the door) i decided to play with it, and then i was thinking about the other door and wondering what mechanism was it that made pushing it with no effort possible.

Not bad.. Doors area also meaningful to us.
I love that door and w25j will have a special spot in my heart cause for first time in poly, they made the experience a really good one, and they have taught me ALOT.

This is for you class and door;) I LOVE US!!!




Thursday, September 11, 2008
If only for tonight




I just had another session of listening and advising someone.

if only someone who hear me out and say the things i said.


I've been listening, am listening and will continue to listen to people cause i like making them feel better.
I just want someone tooooooooooooooooooooooo!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Hits head!

its Onam tmr! My favourite day of the year ( well one of the few la) haha
Good food, happy people,$$ , family gathering..AHHHHHHHH SO EXCITING!
I FEEL LIKE NOT GOING SCHOOL CAUSE I WANT TO HELP WTH PREPARATIONS PART 2!!!!!!!!!!!

haha i'll post pics of preparation today...tmr! haha or maybe on sat! hahaha LOVES BABES AND DOODES!!!!


Wednesday, September 10, 2008
One hell of a day





Just a random pic i found whilst preparing for ppt in school today! Haha and looking at it just makes me smile!




On another note: Twice....TWICE in one day, less then two hours apart, i got insulted right in my face from the two very respected people. If i was even half of what they said, i wouldnt be the person i am today.





AND my one true love, browsing through my folder i found many usher pics that brought a smile on my face nd got my heart beating, you know why they beat faster? because they also want to check usher out so they pump blood faster so that i will be able to keep looking. HAHAHA omg i cant believe i just said that! Never mind. I'm in one of my moods. hahaha But i love this two man..theres more but these two shows some of the OMPH i like in a man;)



charming and soft.




NAH looks dont matter much. but (quotes sister) " he could be the perfect package" maybe with a little more height;)





AND of course the body! WOOOOLALA!




I lOVE BEING A GIRL MAN!


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AHHHHHHH i better pack up now! Go sleep and dream of usher! * runs*

Take me away...a sweet escape



Here comes another emo post =(

I feel like running away somewhere and never coming back!! To just get lost and come back when i feel like it.

thats all.... Nothing else to say.

Except for one thing. My class is sick hahahaha they just played american pie some sick scene hahaha and i feel like PUKING!! hahaha man! My ever so innocent mind.


Tuesday, September 09, 2008
Whats wrong?





So i've always been listening to everyone and i mean everyone. The good, the bad and the ugly.

I dont know what is it in me, that make people want to talk to. haha i am more than happy to give a listening ear to anyone, even the ah pek in the coffeeshop also can, because i know how it feels when u have so much to let out, and theres that someone beside you or anywhere just listening to you. I love hearing people out and haha might even do it for a living;) [ NO WAY MAN. NOT FOR A LIVING]



But then when its my turn to talk it out what do i get? Blank stares and nods that comes with a self activated button that activates the moment i open my mouth. Its easy to know when someone is listening to you or not cause its just in the face and you sometimes just know it but just go on yapping away for the sake of finishing the convo.

Whats wrong man? No one listens. No one. Some times i just end up talking to myself when i'm alone. So what if you think i'm a weirdo but atleast i feel better that way.



I'm alway there. The one people need to vent things out to. I'm just that punching bag that just aborbs the punches and never gives back. Maybe its time i start giving back too.



I did a little relfection yesterday and thought about why this always happen. And i think its cause i dont voice myself out much. I just shut and smile away for anything and everything. There could be war infront of me and all i do is sit and mind my business while deep down i actually am feeling bugged. I have SO much kept inside. Emotions, like frustrations waiting to just gush out. Except for my exceptional moodswings that only come around "a certain period of the month" I never jump unnecessarily except maybe to simply pick on my sisters just to make me feel better . I alway keep calm so much so that people ask me how i can not be affected by it when they are boiling on their side.



Am i a weirdo? What if i become pyscho? Or get some mental disorder.



I've changed over the years and i'm wondering if its for the good or bad.



Or is it i'm just to ignorant to my surrounding???













and one more thing.



heres a little note to you: Are you an idiot?

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Monday, September 08, 2008
Its not the same.

Hey!!!

So i've started school again....am in a new class and yea people are okay but i'm not used to the change yet, and have to adapt to it slowly. I'm sure in time to come we'll go get along well!

I miss W25J but its time to move on! Though the memories are still there...Its the moments we share that leaves us with wonderful memories. ( Wooo I'm so wise)

Anyways...

So since I've been in the class, everyone is new except for Erika . New class, new beginining, new bonds =)

I've been thinking lately.Theres been a doubt i've been having I've been thinking through.
Its just not the same. Like i thought maybe i was impulsive or maybe it was just all in my head, but then i tried and realised ..
its not the same..... it just didnt feel the same. There wasn't that itchy feeling ..NOTHING absolutely nothing.
Then i thought not seeing will help solve problems, but no. that stupid itchy feeling comes....
comes when i'm alone. when i'm down..ANYTIME and it just comes rushing in all over again. I dont know why and i dont know what to do. Telling you made it stronger! AHH

I'm not making sense.

I just dont like the feeling cause its like .............. OH FORGET IT!

its 11.20 and its raining.... my optimum temperature to sleep.
i better get my butt on the bed, to drag my feet to school tmr!

TATAS!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY Love =)

This post is for you babe Neha!
HAPPY 3rd BIRTHDAY BABE!

lets see how you've grown

From this few month old angel


To this one year old monkey


This two year old villain....



AND FINALLY NOW THE THREE YEAR OLD TERROR !!


Hey you! You just turned 3 today, which means I've already been an aunty for 3 years of my life! maaan i sound so old! hahaha Anyways..you should be so thankful you have not 1, not 2 but THREE...THREE kunyama or howeverr you spell it but yea man three ( especially one funky one like me;) wahahaha) Anyways. We've seen you grow and infact apart from watching my small sis grow up, you're the first I've seen and am seeing, growing up and learning right from the start. [ a little note: yes i saw my small sis grow but i was a small fart myself so i didnt really understand anything i saw].

You have mischief written all over your face...haha and sometimes watching you reminds me of how i used to be when i was younger . I terrorized people and now you're terrorizing me too looks like this is what karma is;)
Anyways heres to your many years to come, I hope you grow out of pulling hair babe cause seriously man...i come home with sore scalps and tangled strands after every meeting with you and if you continue that any longer babe.. i might just become bald. Look after mummy k cause mummy loves you! SO DO WE! Love you baby Neha! =)

p.s if you see the two pics with me..haha you actually see how i've grown in the three years hahaha!







Monday, September 01, 2008
Men in uniform..what a sight;)


Rsaf open house 2008



With yours truly as photographer of the dayB-)




My definite most favourite , The BLACK KNIGHT

Awesome



second favourite



soldier and kid



picture speaks for itself



Aerial display




Picture perfect




Even the rain could not dampen our spirits

RAINBOW!
You'll be my ride baby. one day!

Every COOL plane comes with it's own HOT pilot!
hahaha so i hope the pictures gave u a gilmpse of the happenings that day!
its was truly a trip worth while! something i've been waiting for SO long finally came true.
Everything from the company, to the show was awesome. only wish was to sit in the cockpit which had MANY people in queuing for it which left us no choice.
company was good. My equally excited sis and i gawked away at both plane and the men in uniform;) hahaha while my cousin was like our very own portable information booth. Everything you needed to know, was answered!
I had fun! And it left me burnt! The sun was HOT, and somehow i liked it! haha i have three colors on my arm right now coz of the sun burn! And yes my face is a little darker but it isnt that bad.
My sis and i were high...(we know high on what;] ) hahaha no its no alcohol.. we dont drink =}
Ah! even now i'm still high! going to the open house was a whole new feeling. It felt as if i was in another place! Man i SO wanna go back again!
Loves!